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Friday, August 01, 2008
- Not PMS-ing
Why do you keep imposing on us?We have kept quiet but there is no change. Do you take us for granted? My privacy is a thing of the past, Your shadow constantly haunts me All of you are the same, coming and going whenever you please. No, the world does not revolve around you So why do I pay the price? First Wednesday, now today. Stop inconveniencing us. Do you want us to do it to you too? I’ve reached breaking point, I feel like tearing my hair and screaming my lungs out But I have to grin and bear it Inside I’m struggling, Struggling to understand how you can act so normal about it I don’t think I will ever come to like you Not after what you have done Spoiling my February to August The polite thing to do is to ASK Is that too difficult for you? Why do we have to go out of the way for you? I even have to cater to you and I can’t do as I please Please grow up, all of you are not children anymore Why do my plans usually fail? I’m afraid to plan now, afraid of failure Afraid to face disappointment, Again, and again, and again I know it’s beyond our control How I wish the system will just disappear I’ve been waiting for a long time When there is nothing on our agendas But why doesn’t that time seem to come? Remember we said that we would find a day which is totally free? When there would be nothing weighing on our minds? No cares of the world So we can be carefree once again As God made us to be That day hasn’t come yet After more than a year I still cling on to that hope though Though it may not come to pass anytime soon I’m tired of being suppressed, stifled I want to break free And live my life as I want to With you Should I take a step out? Should I trust God? I feel inadequate Extremely Why was this thrust on to me? I can’t find anything of worth in me But God if you say yes, I will do it My confidence is in You If not now, then when? This week hasn’t been easy With everything piling up Feeling like I’m about to explode And not being able to share it with anyone Prayer still unanswered I feel like abandoning all my ‘plans’ And just resting But I can’t They are commitments And I’m committed to it Is it so wrong just to break out of this cycle Just for once? |
 rachel
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